THROUGH THE CHALLENGES

I was blessed with a mostly magical childhood. There were experiences of my voice being stifled from a primary school choir teacher telling me I should just mouth the words, to not being heard by family, this made me an introverted child, less likely to share, I was quiet but I was allowed the space to enjoy the magical realms of colouring in, imaginary friends, and playing dress up.

Experiences of isolation, ridicule and teasing became a part of the school experience, to the point where I did rebel and also became the bully for a time. This led me on an introspective journey. As a teenager I was incredibly removed from engaging with anyone too much and when people got too close to me I pulled away. I experienced sexual trauma as a teenager and after processing this over the years I have realised this is why I was so removed from connecting with people.

I as a young adult experienced a huge kundalini awakening, very premature, that had me hugely disconnected from reality for many years. A journey to understanding what had happened to me during that experience of feeling complete oneness with existence, to feeling in that experience that I could control the weather. This understanding has taken years of self discovery through depression and anxiety, from selective mutism, and habits of people pleasing.